Consistent - Not!

Lately I've been "meeting"quite a couple of ladies who has been following my blog to look for answers on Furmon. I am happy that this blog has brought me closer to many who are going through the same journey as I am. I least I now have reference to more people who are using the cream. But I apologies in advance coz I really do not have any answers for you ladies, I too am searching for answers for myself.

Unfortunately, I am not as consistent as I wish to be in my Journey. My up's and down's are horrible and I truly think that I have "gotten used" to the fact that pregnancy might not be for me. For the first one month on my Journey I was such a good girl, I applied the cream every four hours as recommended by Kak Lin, then I found out that I had a double line, went to the gyne, he told me that my body was not strong enough and that was why I had the early miscarriage. Truth be told, I did not feel sad, I was not angry either. I was just neutral. To me, I had my period. That was all.

But after getting a few email's from my "Furmon Sisters" I realised that I was not alone in this. Others have/are going through an even more winding road. I feel for all of you ladies, I really do. So after chatting up with some of my new friends, I have decided to restart my Furmon treatment.

Whatsapped Kak Lin and got a new bottle from her and started immediately, which was the day after Merdeka. Just like when I first started Furmon, I had sharp pains around my womb/ovaries area. It was so consistent and painful that there was a time that I was actually sweating from the pain which was sooooo weirdddddd.....

But that went on for only 4 days. The pain stopped right after that. Then my period came, so very quietly. I felt nothing when my period came. No pain, no pms, no cramps, NOTHING! I was soooo happy when I realised I had my period and that it was painless. I wasn't even uncomfortable. It was just a normal day for me.

On my third day, while I was showering, that was when it happened. (TMI ALEART) clots after clots kept coming, non stop for a good one hour. then it stopped, and by the time it did, I actually felt tired. I asked a few of my friends who are on Furmon if the had experienced this, one who has endometriosis just like me said she experienced the same thing on her first month, and when she went to the gyne her 4.2cm cyst has disappeared. *POOF* MAGIC

So, I hope and pray that it will be the same case for me too! Inn Sha Allah.

I am now on day 5 of my period and Mr Husband and I will be going for a work trip cum honeymoon this coming weekend. Hopefully this trip will give us rezeki of being pregnant (Amin Amin Amin)

But other than the clots and the no pain during period, nothing new has happened. If you ladies have any tips to share with me please do. I am open to anything to get this baby making on a roll.

Love,
Aisyah

Positive?

This post took me almost 3 days to write. ok 4 now.

Ok so I don't really know how to start this entry without sounding like I am full of myself.

5 days prior to my period due date I was feeling like something was off. Here is the list of things I felt

1. My boobs were vainy (like blue lines shining bright like a diamond kinds of vainy) and was soooooooo sore. Putting on a bra was painful, taking it off was painful, taking a shower was painful, wearing my tshirt without a bra at home was painful. conclusion, my boobs was feeling horrible.

2. I was feeling super faint. I can talk to someone and for a split second I felt like I was going to drop off my seat and faint. I was tired all day long from doing absolutely nothing.

3. I felt queasy. Not enough to puke, but enough to make me feel sick. 4 days straight.

4. I had a slight temperature that went on and off throughout that 5 days

5. I was bloated like mad, which resulted to the queasy feeling I guess

6. I was farting non-stop. NON STOP :(

So like any normal TTC person, I took a test 5 days prior to my period and got my negative result, the only test I had for that matter, the one that came free with my first Furmon bottle.

That was on... Thursday. So I thought to myself, I will only buy a test and do it after my period is due, which according to my calculation was on Monday.

Friday, I was still feeling so sick, so I went to the pharmacy to get something for the wind and to stock up my vitamins, then I saw on the reduce to clear shelf was ONE pregnancy test kit that was going for RM4. It had my name all over it and of course I bought it and and took half day that day and headed home.

I got home and went straight to bed, then when I woke up the first thing that was on my mind was the test. Im a pee-on-the-stick freak. So knowing that there was a stick in the house that needed peeing on, I couldn't help myself.

This is what I got.

looks like a negative right? look closely! Its a super faint positive. There is a line where the T is.

I was shaking but I kept quiet, didn't wanna tell anyone, not even my husband because I don't know why, I was having this feeling deep down that this is not my month.

The next morning, Saturday.

I woke up feeling fine.

I was ok.

All the symptoms I had were gone. Like magic, I could eat, drink, laugh without feeling faint or like I was gonna puke. My boobs did not hurt at all too!

We went out for lunch, my husband and chacha and I and it was so hot that day I remember being in a bad mood and had this massive headache.

Told my husband I needed to go to the toilet to wash my face and then I found out I was on my period. :( it was not even spotting coz my period just attacked me right there and then. With clots and all!

Today I am on CD4 and I did some research and this is what I found.

Apparently according to my symptoms, I had a chemical pregnancy = early early early miscarriage.

Read more here: http://www.madeformums.com/pregnancy/what-is-a-chemical-pregnancy/36135.html

But although some TTC ladies said that when they found out that it was a chemical pregnancy they were depressed and sad and felt like they could not get out of it. For me it was a little different. I was relieved.

I felt relieved to know that I have started ovulating again, and that my husbands boys are working. To me this is a big step to becoming pregnant after 6 years of no changes at all. Alhamdulillah. I did after all give myself 3 months before heading to the gyne to check if my cysts are gone in the first place so this happening quite early is a good sign for me.

Now I all I need to do is pee on a stick everyday until I find my ovulation day and party! Also to keep being positive all the way.

If after all this, I end up not being pregnant, then it's Allah's will and I accept it :) But of course, no giving up without a fight Inn Sha Allah.

Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers please. :*

Love,

Aisyah

Bottle Number 2

Assalamualaikum Guys,

I dont really have anything to update actually except that my boobs feel like they are watermelons, my back aches, my tekak feels itchy like I swallowed sand or something and I cant sleep at night but i'm sleepy all day long. Sucks to be me right now.

But I can breakdown why I am feeling all of this

1. boobs like watermelons = I am 5 days to AF and since my boobs are normally the size of a honeydew anyways, so its just a slight size increase, tapi teramatlah tak selesa. and this is almost (i get this at least 3 - 4 times a year) my normal symptoms before AF.

2. Backache. my boobs are heavy remember?

3. Sakit tekak, not too sure, I hope I dont fall sick :(

4. Cannot sleep - ntahlah, I think I miss my little Nur Aisya Dayana too much :( her grandma took her for a two week long holiday

5. Sleepy all day - yalah, cannot sleep at night! pfft

So anyways,

I was running out of my Furmon cream today and just ordered my second bottle, one more bottle before I go to the gyne to check if my endometriosis has improved with hopes that my ovarian cysts are gone too!

So day 25 of using this cream, besides me ovulating, my tummy still looks higher (even mr husband notices) and I AM ALWAYS HUNGRY :(

*munching on muruku as i type*

I don't know if I should blame the cream or myself. Im gonna start fasting tomorrow so we'll see what happens then.

Anyways... besides those mentioned above, nothing much has happened. Im still the same old me, become older each day.

Love
Aisyah

Raw Egg White

TMI ALERT! Body fluids will be given accurate description here:

So anyways,

According to my flow calendar, I ovulated today!

Ignore the starhub sign, Im in spore for a business trip. hehe.

But of course I did not believe the calendar, its just regular calculation so I did what most websites asked to do, check your CM... and after yearssssss, today I got that stringy, not so clear, not so white, raw egg white kinda CM! I was soooo happy! There was no smell though (so I guess thats a good sign?) and it made not wearing panty liners so uncomfortable.

Then I took an OPK (In my hotel room alone in spore "sad face" )

What did I get?

TADAAAA!!!!

I am sooo happy to see this improvement, Alhamdulillah. 

Too soon though to be excited, but at least I know Im ovulating, and that Furmon is working well for me. I am feeling better each day.

Love

Aisyah

Up There

Assalamualaikum :)

Remember I said that i felt like my womb has gone up after applying Furmon? well, today is day 12 in my cycle and I was thinking to myself, maybeeeeee it was a side effect of my period that everything just tightened up in there! So today, I stood in front of a mirror again, and what did i see? My perut looks MUCH HIGHER!

Amazeballs! I cant believe it. So now I really do believe that people with prolapsed uterus can really get better with Furmon.

So I had family over this weekend and of course, diet went down the drain since we went out makan for every meal! started with nasi ayam hailam uptown for lunch, uptown food court for dinner (so thats sizzling western for me) the next day was dimsum at minmax pnb darby park for brunch, then we went to Quill City Mall to jalan-jalan = more snacks, and tapau-ed tomyum for dinner :( cry....

So u get the point, when I say that my diet went down the drain, in went farrrr farrrr farrrrrrrrrrrrr-rrrr-rrrrr-rrrrr down.

Back to furmon, according to my "My Days" calendar, I should be ovulating tomorrow, but I don't remember what it feels like to ovulate, as of today, I feel damn nauseous, my boobs are uncomfortable and my lower abdomen feels heavy. I should take a test i know, but I was rushing this morning and totally forgot.

I used to take ovulation tests, but it came up positive ALL THE TIME! Thanks endometriosis for confusing the tests, so I hope this time around no more false reading, otherwise it is gonna be a waste of money :(

But I am still continuing my furmon and hopefully after three months when I go for my scan everything would be cleared up in there, Inn Sha Allah, Amin. 

If any of you guys are going through this same Furmon journey please share em with me or if your blogging about it too please do let me know too what its like for u!

Love 

Aisyah

  

Spring cleaning!

Let's start with this:

CD: 3
Flow: madness
Pain: I think I am going to die

If this is what labor pains feel like, I am signing up for an epidural NOW! Even without being pregnant. When I look at myself in the mirror today, I look so damn pale, it's like I'm a vampire or something. And when the Furmon lady told me that when my period comes all the old blood/clots that's been hanging around partying in my womb, around my ovaries, around my tubes were all gonna finally leave I had my doubts. Tapi today damn son! Rasa Mcm nak terberanak. The little people in my tummy are working extra hard today, squeezing and pulling and ripping my insides.  Tapi  it's not like I didn't know that this was coming, but I was Poyo poyo thinking, nahhhh this will not happen to me.

TMI Alert!

Even while I was showering this morning, clots were coming out like no body's business. For the past 6 years of me learning that I have endometriosis, this has never ever ever happen to me.

But! Alhamdulillah I take this as a really good sign. Clearing out all that crap and getting rid of all that nonsense that has been infesting my body. Smua orang cakap, for us women if our womb and intestines is healthy, Inn Sha Allah everything else follows.

Ok that's all for today. Still in pain but need to get the clothes folded *cry*

Love

Aisyah

Red Flag Attack!

Good Morning,

I now realise the only place I feel comfortable writing my blog is in the office, maybe its coz when I'm home and on my laptop all I can hear is "Ibu ootuutawn oootuuutawnnn" = "Ibu all through town all through town" or also known as wheels on the bus. That's all she likes to watch for nursery rhymes, if its not that, its Upin dan Ipin on major repeat! Sampai Ibu dah hafal each and every word of the episode (I am not exaggerating)

So now for the real update, today I am on day two of my AF (aunt flow = period), Yesterday when I woke up from bed, I thought I was gonna die from cramps, it was so sakit it was seriously not funny. On top of that I had to poop too (TMI im sorry) so just imagine period cramps and sakit perut combined, damn. But after awhile the pain went away, especially after I applied my Furmon cream. Not too sure if that had anything to do with the pain subsiding, or just that my tummy adjusted to the pain.

But anyways, AF was really shy yesterday, it was so little that I felt like it was one of those fake spottings and not full on flow, until today... there is blood everywhere, its like someone turned the tap on and its just flowing like no ones business, but! no pain at all. I've read that for some people recovering from endometriosis when all the clots that is stuck around your organs starts to shed, it'll hurt like cray cray. But up to now (10am 8th May) no pain what-so-ever. I just need heavy flow tampons and overnight pads to keep it all under control.

Oh lupa nak bagitau, ever since I've started Furmon, Ive also started on Bio-Zinc complex pills, folic acid and vitamin B. All of these is to replace the blood that we loose during period, give us energy and strengthen the womb. So hopefully I am on track to recovery. Eating loads of greens and fruits too, so Ive stocked all of these up in the office pantry so that I dont end up munching on junk when im bored. Huhu

Anyways, work is calling

Will update more when/if I see more difference

Love,

Aisyah

Taman tasik perdana

Good morning kawan-kawan!

Sorry I missed out on my Furmon ttc update this past few days. Baru second post dah tak tepati janji.

But for good reasons, it was a full long weekend this past four days. According to the Lady who sold me my cream, endometriosis or any other fertility patients should do some sort of sweating in order to help with the process. So when my friends asked if I would like to join their jogging session in Taman tasik perdana I jumped at the opportunity 😊 on Friday!

Anyways for keeps sake and sharing opportunity here are some photos of my jogging session!

 My little person is in playground heaven

 After all that running aka chasing chacha around

 My little model in the making :)

Group duckface attempt fail coz Suhaila wanted to stay pretty

Back to my Furmon update, from Saturday til Monday nothing dramatic happened, so the normal sapu cream every 4 hours went on. But yesterday while I was putting on my second application of cream for that day, I noticed something strange. My tummy looked higher! like it went back into place or something. You see, I've been to a few people to urut and sengkak and all of them have said the same thing about my womb, and that it is "longgar". It wont stay put in its place for some reason and apparently the socket that holds it into place is not doing its job. I dont really know the answer to this so i often have to sengkak. After the urut session I will usually notice that my tummy is higher, meaning that my womb is in place, but after a couple of weeks, it will slowly go back to its old state. But this time, no urut just sapu sapu cream and by tummy looks higher. Im taking it as a good sign.

All in all, my almost one week experience with this cream has been fruitful since i can see the difference. Now to wait for my period to see if I can see a difference there pulak! Wish me luck

6th May 2015
CD - 26
Period Due 5th May (1 day late but I feel it cominggggg)

Love 

Aisyah

Furmon Starts - Day 1

Assalamualaikum! Hey guys,
(IF there are people reading this blog)

Before I start, lemme tell you the main reason for my blogging, I have been reading alot, when I say alot I mean day in day out googling for answers on this product called Furmon. From what I know is that Furmon is an all natural ingredient cream that can help you balance out your hormons, and after a year of contemplating if I should try it out, I've finally ordered my 1 month supply. So this is me trying to see if I can spot the difference by keeping track of my body and the changes after using this product through blogging. Inn Sha Allah, I will try my very best to blog everyday!

So for you who are wondering, this is the set that I got myself (Set 1 B)

Mengigil jugak lah when I was transferring RM457 (add on RM8 for postage) to a strangers account for something that I am not quite sure of in the first place.

But wait! before that I did talk to my doctor about this to get his green light if it is safe to use in the first place. He mentioned that although this might not be the full solution to my problem, there is a possibility that it can reduce the symptoms to a minimal. Well beggars cant be choosers, ill take anything I can afford.

I searched high and low for distributers who I can feel comfortable with and I found Kak Lin. She asked me lots of questions as to why I want to try Furmon and if a had any infertility history, years of marriage, my period lenght, etc. She gave tips according to my problem and that made me feel more confident to order from her.

I ordered on the 29th of April 2015, parcel arrived on the 30th of April 2015 (11:45am) - so yes! trustable as hell!

Now to jot down my journey

30th April 2015
CD - 20
Period Due 5th May

12:00pm - application of Furmon cream + vit b complex + zinc tablets + folic acid
1:00pm - Lunch (had a weird poking sensation around my waist, not sure if it has anything to do with the cream)
2:00pm - still have that poking sensation
4:30pm - still poking sensation, sapu furmon

Ok enough poking, update when i can

Ciao Bella

Aisyah