What makes you a woman?

Assalamualaikum ladies.

Having some sort of illness that is causing our infertility can be really frustrating kan? Tiap2 bulan we get these imaginary symptoms thinking that we've finally been knocked up. Lol, but as usual the cramps comes in and AF starts its course. 

When I first got married, I truly thought that in order to feel like a woman I'd have to get pregnant and give birth. Facebook was my worst enemy, I felt jealous and depressed each time I see someone upload their pregnancy progress, from baby no 1, then suddenly they have a surprise baby no 2 while I am sitting on the other side of my phone scrolling alone. That was the worst feeling ever. 

When I finally went on my Furmon journey I realised that the aim is to get better, to eventually get pregnant (InnSyaAllah) 

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If you are an Endo patient just like me, I'm sure you will understand the pain we go through each time miss period comes - nak jalan takleh, merangkak pon susah. But have you heard of endo patients who has period pains on normal days????

Yes that happens too! a friend of mine had period pains all the time, to the extend of having to take painkiller injections at the clinic just so that she could go to work. I cannot imagine being in that situation. She confessed in one of the facebook statuses that she was under serious consideration to remove her womb just so that she doesn't have to be in so much pain. I stared at her post for so long till my screen went on sleep mode. My goodness, how to live without a womb? what would it do to your already wonky hormones? I was so scared for her that I immediately contacted her and introduced her to Furmon. 

Then we continued chatting on whatsapp, I told everything I knew at the time on Furmon, how it works and why its a good alternative for us Endos. A week later she bought her first bottle. 

This was her whatsapp to me a couple of months later

Masyallah I was so happy I actually cried a little. My endo sister made it! All after using Furmon. I was so happy that I did the right thing by sharing this product with her. No more painkiller injections just a baby kicking in her belly. 

May Allah bless you dear.

If any of you are interested in finding out more on Furmon, feel free to Whatsapp me - I will be more than happy to help you InnSyaAllah we go through this journey together.

Love 

Aisyah (a brand new Furmon agent)

0172111210

Unboxing my Furmon for 2016 (DAY ONE AGAIN!)

Assalamualaikum fellow TTC sisters :)

Alhamdulillah the weekend is here! for office working mom's/ladies this means going back to sleep after suboh and waking up at 10 and termenung for the next 30 minutes before actually catching up with a week's worth of laundry and cooking for the hubsters. For me, it's just another day (pfft) going to the shop and being there all day baking and packing andddddd making sure my Chacha is fed and taken care of.  

Today once again I've decided to restart on my Furmon Journey - it's slowly becoming a yearly affair for me. I go on the cream for a few months, then become so malassssss and then that's the end. Then I get news of friends or family getting pregnant on Furmon and then I am back to square one. Excited like a monkey then do what I do best, loose track pastu jadi malas. 

Will someone please volunteer to become me slap buddy? I think thats what I need. 

Anyways for the umpteenth time, I am restarting my Furmon treatment. For you ladies who are curious on what this cream looks like from the time you receive it in the mail, here's a little picture info for you :)

Can you see the price? RM210 before postage - comes with pricetag lagi tu and bubble wrapped for safety

wrapped with plastic under that bubble wrap! Had to use a knife to open this. lol

Tadaaaa.... The white beauty

The famous bottle

comes with another layer of protective cover

filled right to the brim

My first application for 2016 (fat fingers ohhh my fat fingers)

Its been atleast 6 months since I last used my furmon cream and my last period has started going ting-tong on me. It came wayyyy to early and was very uncomfortable, and today I started spotting in between periods. so yes, its time to get back on track :(

So I've applied 3 times today (I was actually recommended to sapu once every four hours, but my monkey brain can never seem to remember) 

Here's an update on what I feel:-

19th April 2015

CD10

Period due - Sept 4th

That poking sensation is backkkkk. This time only on the left side. Rasa mcm u know that gastric feeling but only on one side. This upcoming period is going to be interestanggggg....

Fuhh fuhh

Ladies, if you have any questions or if you wanna order your first bottle of furmon, please feel free to contact me. Innsyallah I will be able to hook you up :) sharing is after all caring. This journey we're on is not an easy one. So doas and support from each other is what we need. 

My number 0172111210 - can whatsapp me hehe

email ayesyah@gmail.com

Will update more tomorrow Innsyallah. Good night ladies 

love 

Aisyah

Furmon Hormon #Heythatrhymes

Hello Friends!

It's been way too long since i last visited my page :( I'm sorry lots has been going on lately and there is so much to do around here now-days.

You see I've recently started my own business, hoping to be closer to home and closer to my chacha to ease my ttc journey. Hello someone should have slapped me hard and pulled me out from the fairytale cloud i was in, this is harder than facing 2 hours of traffic every morning.

My tiniest staff for now

Im not sure if princesses are allowed to do hard labor

BUT

yerp there's a but, I am grateful i took this leap coz at night when i tuck (more like force) my bub in bed I feel butterflies all over knowing that I was with her all day today and did not waste a single minute. Yes, there was a lot of threatening on my end like if she picks that scissors up I am going to call the police to catch her and what not, but atleast it was me who was threatening her and not some stranger (lol)

so anyways back to the main reason of this blog. You see close to a year ago I introduced Furmon to a bunch of my family and friends. Not sure why but i felt the urge to share this good thing with people around me. WALAUPUN I did not end up with a baby in hand, but remember I did fall pregnant (well sort of) which is something that has never happened to me ever since i got married. After being diagnosed with endo I have tried EVERYTHING to
1. reduce the pain
2. increase libido
3. GET PREGNANT

All i can say is Ive achieve three out of three of the above. I just have not delivered a mini me or mini husband just yet. Usaha tetap usaha, tapi rezeki tu is Allah's to give ye dak?

Anyways, walaupun it's not my rezeki, but each time I get news of new babies growing in their mummies bellies after using Furmon I become extremely overjoyed! It's one of those feel good stories that gets to me everytime. I mean if you've started using (or searching for information on Furmon) you and I are on the same boat baby, and when your mission accomplished I get over excited macam I yang pregnant. lol.

Here's the thing, just like you, I too had a hard time looking for the right agent to get my furmon stash from. I felt embarrassed and uncomfortable even from that very first sms or whatsapp. Even if you are not planning to purchase your first set and is just curious on what this Furmon thing is all about feel free to whatsapp me (0172111210) I will be more than happy to share my experience.

This is my first step in knowing my ttc friend better, because just like you, I aim to get pregnant too!

I have a few testimonials to share from my friends and family but for now this is all I have to say (suspend tak?)

Again, if you wanna email me boleh (ayesyah@gmail.com) if you wanna whatsapp me pon boleh (0172111210)

Assalamulaikum <3

love
Aisyah

Consistent - Not!

Lately I've been "meeting"quite a couple of ladies who has been following my blog to look for answers on Furmon. I am happy that this blog has brought me closer to many who are going through the same journey as I am. I least I now have reference to more people who are using the cream. But I apologies in advance coz I really do not have any answers for you ladies, I too am searching for answers for myself.

Unfortunately, I am not as consistent as I wish to be in my Journey. My up's and down's are horrible and I truly think that I have "gotten used" to the fact that pregnancy might not be for me. For the first one month on my Journey I was such a good girl, I applied the cream every four hours as recommended by Kak Lin, then I found out that I had a double line, went to the gyne, he told me that my body was not strong enough and that was why I had the early miscarriage. Truth be told, I did not feel sad, I was not angry either. I was just neutral. To me, I had my period. That was all.

But after getting a few email's from my "Furmon Sisters" I realised that I was not alone in this. Others have/are going through an even more winding road. I feel for all of you ladies, I really do. So after chatting up with some of my new friends, I have decided to restart my Furmon treatment.

Whatsapped Kak Lin and got a new bottle from her and started immediately, which was the day after Merdeka. Just like when I first started Furmon, I had sharp pains around my womb/ovaries area. It was so consistent and painful that there was a time that I was actually sweating from the pain which was sooooo weirdddddd.....

But that went on for only 4 days. The pain stopped right after that. Then my period came, so very quietly. I felt nothing when my period came. No pain, no pms, no cramps, NOTHING! I was soooo happy when I realised I had my period and that it was painless. I wasn't even uncomfortable. It was just a normal day for me.

On my third day, while I was showering, that was when it happened. (TMI ALEART) clots after clots kept coming, non stop for a good one hour. then it stopped, and by the time it did, I actually felt tired. I asked a few of my friends who are on Furmon if the had experienced this, one who has endometriosis just like me said she experienced the same thing on her first month, and when she went to the gyne her 4.2cm cyst has disappeared. *POOF* MAGIC

So, I hope and pray that it will be the same case for me too! Inn Sha Allah.

I am now on day 5 of my period and Mr Husband and I will be going for a work trip cum honeymoon this coming weekend. Hopefully this trip will give us rezeki of being pregnant (Amin Amin Amin)

But other than the clots and the no pain during period, nothing new has happened. If you ladies have any tips to share with me please do. I am open to anything to get this baby making on a roll.

Love,
Aisyah

Positive?

This post took me almost 3 days to write. ok 4 now.

Ok so I don't really know how to start this entry without sounding like I am full of myself.

5 days prior to my period due date I was feeling like something was off. Here is the list of things I felt

1. My boobs were vainy (like blue lines shining bright like a diamond kinds of vainy) and was soooooooo sore. Putting on a bra was painful, taking it off was painful, taking a shower was painful, wearing my tshirt without a bra at home was painful. conclusion, my boobs was feeling horrible.

2. I was feeling super faint. I can talk to someone and for a split second I felt like I was going to drop off my seat and faint. I was tired all day long from doing absolutely nothing.

3. I felt queasy. Not enough to puke, but enough to make me feel sick. 4 days straight.

4. I had a slight temperature that went on and off throughout that 5 days

5. I was bloated like mad, which resulted to the queasy feeling I guess

6. I was farting non-stop. NON STOP :(

So like any normal TTC person, I took a test 5 days prior to my period and got my negative result, the only test I had for that matter, the one that came free with my first Furmon bottle.

That was on... Thursday. So I thought to myself, I will only buy a test and do it after my period is due, which according to my calculation was on Monday.

Friday, I was still feeling so sick, so I went to the pharmacy to get something for the wind and to stock up my vitamins, then I saw on the reduce to clear shelf was ONE pregnancy test kit that was going for RM4. It had my name all over it and of course I bought it and and took half day that day and headed home.

I got home and went straight to bed, then when I woke up the first thing that was on my mind was the test. Im a pee-on-the-stick freak. So knowing that there was a stick in the house that needed peeing on, I couldn't help myself.

This is what I got.

looks like a negative right? look closely! Its a super faint positive. There is a line where the T is.

I was shaking but I kept quiet, didn't wanna tell anyone, not even my husband because I don't know why, I was having this feeling deep down that this is not my month.

The next morning, Saturday.

I woke up feeling fine.

I was ok.

All the symptoms I had were gone. Like magic, I could eat, drink, laugh without feeling faint or like I was gonna puke. My boobs did not hurt at all too!

We went out for lunch, my husband and chacha and I and it was so hot that day I remember being in a bad mood and had this massive headache.

Told my husband I needed to go to the toilet to wash my face and then I found out I was on my period. :( it was not even spotting coz my period just attacked me right there and then. With clots and all!

Today I am on CD4 and I did some research and this is what I found.

Apparently according to my symptoms, I had a chemical pregnancy = early early early miscarriage.

Read more here: http://www.madeformums.com/pregnancy/what-is-a-chemical-pregnancy/36135.html

But although some TTC ladies said that when they found out that it was a chemical pregnancy they were depressed and sad and felt like they could not get out of it. For me it was a little different. I was relieved.

I felt relieved to know that I have started ovulating again, and that my husbands boys are working. To me this is a big step to becoming pregnant after 6 years of no changes at all. Alhamdulillah. I did after all give myself 3 months before heading to the gyne to check if my cysts are gone in the first place so this happening quite early is a good sign for me.

Now I all I need to do is pee on a stick everyday until I find my ovulation day and party! Also to keep being positive all the way.

If after all this, I end up not being pregnant, then it's Allah's will and I accept it :) But of course, no giving up without a fight Inn Sha Allah.

Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers please. :*

Love,

Aisyah

Bottle Number 2

Assalamualaikum Guys,

I dont really have anything to update actually except that my boobs feel like they are watermelons, my back aches, my tekak feels itchy like I swallowed sand or something and I cant sleep at night but i'm sleepy all day long. Sucks to be me right now.

But I can breakdown why I am feeling all of this

1. boobs like watermelons = I am 5 days to AF and since my boobs are normally the size of a honeydew anyways, so its just a slight size increase, tapi teramatlah tak selesa. and this is almost (i get this at least 3 - 4 times a year) my normal symptoms before AF.

2. Backache. my boobs are heavy remember?

3. Sakit tekak, not too sure, I hope I dont fall sick :(

4. Cannot sleep - ntahlah, I think I miss my little Nur Aisya Dayana too much :( her grandma took her for a two week long holiday

5. Sleepy all day - yalah, cannot sleep at night! pfft

So anyways,

I was running out of my Furmon cream today and just ordered my second bottle, one more bottle before I go to the gyne to check if my endometriosis has improved with hopes that my ovarian cysts are gone too!

So day 25 of using this cream, besides me ovulating, my tummy still looks higher (even mr husband notices) and I AM ALWAYS HUNGRY :(

*munching on muruku as i type*

I don't know if I should blame the cream or myself. Im gonna start fasting tomorrow so we'll see what happens then.

Anyways... besides those mentioned above, nothing much has happened. Im still the same old me, become older each day.

Love
Aisyah

Raw Egg White

TMI ALERT! Body fluids will be given accurate description here:

So anyways,

According to my flow calendar, I ovulated today!

Ignore the starhub sign, Im in spore for a business trip. hehe.

But of course I did not believe the calendar, its just regular calculation so I did what most websites asked to do, check your CM... and after yearssssss, today I got that stringy, not so clear, not so white, raw egg white kinda CM! I was soooo happy! There was no smell though (so I guess thats a good sign?) and it made not wearing panty liners so uncomfortable.

Then I took an OPK (In my hotel room alone in spore "sad face" )

What did I get?

TADAAAA!!!!

I am sooo happy to see this improvement, Alhamdulillah. 

Too soon though to be excited, but at least I know Im ovulating, and that Furmon is working well for me. I am feeling better each day.

Love

Aisyah